In love with love.....

One of my best girlfrens is getting married next month. Though we r half the peninsular apart from each other, we r very much share a same trade when we were younger - we r, most of the time, 'IN LOVE WITH LOVE'

Why did i say so? We r (or were) always dating the wrong guys & never learnt our lesson.

There was 1 ocassion when i just broke up with my 39th (maybe 40th or 41st - lost count of them) BF n was crying my lung out of broken hearted on her shoulder. I refused to eat and get up from (her) bed for almost 2 weeks & she nursed me back to health (read: the dating circle). We sit over a pack of ciggies n talked about why do girls like us get lied by those jerks. Why haven't we learnt our lesson for all the mistakes & misjudgments we made over the years? Are we that dumb not to notice the tell-tale sign on these jerks? Or r we too blinded by the (blings?)love they offered?

Two of the SOBs that i had relationship with have a clear sign written on their forehead that they are professional liars, they r ugly (for my standard - mine is relatively low when it comes to looks) n they r married! Yeah u mite ask; what the F**** were u thinking? yup, i wud say the same to myself too, now. But the words, the promise, the shower of attention (blings) charmed them into my heart. Nevertheless, my conscience was always telling me that i was screwing up my life. But as a girl who is madly in love with (love) a man, there's no good judgment involved. Perspective is clouded, objectivity is compromised. Though aware of the disaster at the end of the road, WE WERE IN DENIAL. We thot (& determined to convince ourselves) it would work out, we r the right girl for the man, not their missus. We'll make them happy(ier). It will work. It worked out for SITI NORHALIZA, it should work for us! So we let ourselves drowned in that dream/disillusion/fairy tales.

Of course, there were more bitter moments than the pleasant ones. Still, i let myself being lured into the (false) relationship. So it's true when people (read: women) say that 'A woman can fake an orgasm, a man can fake the whole relationship'. I knew it after the 1st relationship, but i let myself into the 'dungeon' again for the 2nd time.Bottom line, we keep falling in love with these jerks.

Then me & my gf analyzed our failed relationships & why we repeat them. We realized, we just LOVE the idea of LOVE. We love to LOVE n to be LOVED. We r IN LOVE WITH LOVE. So, regardless of who the heck the men are, as long as they can feed our crave for THE IDEA OF LOVE (n some blings); we'll buy it. We will fall head over heels with them. Then we get hurt. Then we recover. Then we date again...and the vicious cycle repeats itself.

We can't help it. It's just our thing. Maybe we'll break the cycle when we r old & grey (or boring & married). As long as we r still SINGLE, HOT & SPICY, we just got to be HOPELESSLY ROMANTIC. We have to be IN LOVE WITH LOVE. All the time.....